I have read multiple articles about how we all get a false sense of everyone’s life based on social media. How everyone only post the good things that happen in their lives. That the one person’s who life you envy might not be as great as they portray on social media. I always had the idea that while most people only post the good, there are some individuals who post their real life. It wasn’t until recently that I have fallen into this same trap. I was photoshopping a selfie of mine in the 3rd photo editor software, making it look as perfect as I could. It took me a few days but I realized I was the person that everyone was writing about. I only posted about the positives happening in my life.
It is a tough pill to swallow for me because while my life does have many great moments, I also have dark parts to. I haven’t been open until recent years but I have struggled with depression since age 8. Having depression of all these years I have learned how to manage it without medication. I am not going to lie I have my good days and bad days. If you were to look at my Facebook and Instagram pages you would get the image of a happy life full of amazing moments. This is where the deception starts…
This picture here is what caused all of this. You might see a strong, confident woman, wife and mom. What I see? A tired, sad, exhausted, happy, unsure, unworthy, fake and struggling person. I hate to say it but when I look at this photo I only think to myself…if only everyone knew what the smile hides.
I do have an amazing husband who will do anything to make me happy and love me for who I am, flaws in all. My three kids are wonderful and even though they fight like siblings and push my buttons, they are the reason I wake up everyday, literally. I try to be strong of all of them and be the perfect mom and wife but this last month has been especially hard on me emotionally. I am not saying that every day is a bad day but every day but this last month has been a roller-coaster of emotions for me.
So, keep in mind that next time you’re looking at a friend’s social media account just remember that you might not be getting the whole picture. Social media is a great tool to keep in touch but it can also be a tool of deception.
